I AM HERE. Caesar.

Well, I merely want to say that, since I last wrote to you, I have followed your advice and have listened to the advice of the high spirits to whom you sent me, and I have been praying as they instructed me. I am now in a much better condition than I was, and the view that I now have of life in the spirit world is very different.

I am still in some darkness, but light is breaking into my soul and consciousness. I am commencing to realize that my fate, as I have for so many years conceived it to be, is not fate at all, and that my conception of what my fixed state was is all wrong. It was the “child,” if I may so call it, of my condition of mind and beliefs, that came to me when I came to the spirit world and realized that the fact of my having been what the world called a great man on earth did not fit me for any greatness in the spirit world. I was then so disappointed and shocked by finding myself a naked spirit of qualities that brought me into darkness and suffering that I tried to avoid the association of all other spirits. I nursed my disappointment in isolation and with the belief that, for  me, there could be no change in my condition, or any possible progress out of the awful lonesomeness and weariness of my soul.

And, now, when I know how different the truth is, I feel that all these long years of my spirit life have been wasted; and I bewail the fate that held me so long in that condition of stagnation and pride and resentment and utter hopelessness.

I am now so thankful that I came to you when I did and told you of my condition. And when I realize that my coming to you was more a matter of curiosity to be satisfied—that I could communicate with the mortal world—than because of any hope of receiving any help or benefit that could possibly come to me, I thank my curiosity.

When you told me the things that you did, I thought that you were an idle dreamer, and the recipient of some of the harmless vices that existed among the men of my  earthly days who used to declaim upon the glories of the spirit world. I had no faith in them, and I had none in you. And it was only when I realized that you were so earnest in what you were declaring to me, and when I came in contact with the higher spirits that you called to my assistance, and saw that they had in them something that I had not—and which I had never seen in any other spirit—did I commence to think that what you had told me might have some foundation of truth.

I also thought that I could not make my condition any worse by listening to these spirits, and learning what they had to tell me as to what they declared was the truth of spirit progress. And the more I listened, the more interested I became. After a while, I was convinced that there might be some truth in what they so earnestly asserted to be true; and, as an experiment, I concluded to follow their advice and seek for this wonderful Love that they told me would not only relieve me from my darkness and suffering but would also make a new spirit of me in body and soul.

And, oh, the wonderful surprise and experience that came to me! For I am no longer the gloomy, despondent and isolated emperor, but a mere spirit who recognizes that death is the great leveller, and that rank and position and greatness of earth do not in one iota determine the status of the spirit for position of exaltation. I am now a plain spirit in my consciousness, having only those qualities which the condition of my soul gives me. And I realize that I must pursue the same course and suffer the same purgation as must other spirits in the same condition of soul, be they princes or peasants.

Well, as I said, I am so thankful that this knowledge has come to me. For now I am rid of pride and ideas of superiority, and all those things that had caused me to believe that the Almighty had treated me unjustly in not recognizing my earthly qualities and giving me a position which, as I believed, my greatness entitled me to. I resented all this, and, in my resentment, I became a spirit who fed on my imaginary injuries. I thought that I would be sufficient unto myself, and that I would not seek the favor of such a God. So, you see what can be the effect of arrogance and pride and a self-glorious estimate of one small mind upon the possibility of a spirit’s happiness and progress.

But now these things have left me, and I realize that I am a nothing, except that I am a child of God and the object of His Love, as your spirit friends have told me and are telling me. And in my humility—and I am humble, for I want to tell you that my fall was great and the consciousness of my littleness extreme—I know that I need the Help of the Father in order to become a spirit of Light in the least degree. And I am praying and longing and seeking, oh, so earnestly for this Love!

Caesar, the once mighty, is now Caesar the most humble and weak, but the most hopeful. I realize the greatness of God’s Mercy and the great possibility of Its making me one of these glorious angels that come to you so often with their messages of Truth and salvation to mankind.

I was considered on earth a man of brilliant mind and wonderful intellect, and what of this I had I still possess. And now that the Way has been shown me, I am exercising these qualities to the best of my ability to help me in my search for Truth and Light.

I thought that I would write this tonight, for I know that you are interested in my advancement; and, besides, it does me much good to tell you. I am praying and longing, and these spirits are praying with me. But, as yet, I have not very much of this Love in my soul, but enough to know—I say know—that It is real and that It makes the hard, unbelieving soul open up to the inflowing of Its Divine Essence in greater abundance. The Father is Good, and I am trusting Him; and, with all the possibilities of my soul, I am longing for its filling with this Love, and the getting rid of all these century-old doubts and hardness of heart and unbeliefs.

I know the Way, and now I will never relapse into the state of mind that was mine for so many centuries. And I can say that Caesar has seen the beacon light of hope, and the great sun of knowledge, that these things which the loving spirits tell me are true.

I must stop now, but, as I progress, I should like to come to you and describe my progress.

I will say good night, and subscribe myself,

Your friend and well-wisher,

JULIUS CAESAR.